This drama is out of control

Posted on: March 6, 2017 at 08:39:36 CT

Dan Vannier While I truly consider public venting to be extremely childish and grossly immature, I find the utmost irony in the fact that you are trash talking the very man, who is still paying for the phone, you are using, a month after he broke up with you for at least the second time. But since I'm being called out in the court of Facebook I'm going to take a moment to testify. I figure the comment won't get deleted for a few hours since you don't generally get up until noon. It wasn't so much a break up as an escape from a toxic person, who is her very own worst enemy. I tried and failed to make that escape more than once but you successfully kept me from doing so, now I know why and it wasn't love honey. I chose to no longer sacrifice my own self respect and give of my heart to someone who crapped on it at every opportunity. I gave you gifts, many, because I did love you, I cared. But even the best love can die, over time, when it is starved by selfishness and cruelty. I was under the false impression that you were a sweet person who was a victim. You truly are neither. But please remember, I actually know the person behind the facade and public image of being the "queen of love". I also gave you money to live on, to keep you from being a stripper because you told me that you didn't want to do that. Instead, you used that money to buy alcohol, wigs, fake eyelashes, your "medication", anything but what is required to support your very own survival needs. Because you knew that I wouldn't allow your gas, your electricity, your water to be cut off. Uncle sugar provides the food and the rent, so what the heck, right? I worked weekends fixing up rental homes, trying to show your son, the value of hard work and the rewards, that it brought and perhaps even to show you. I loaned you a nice vehicle which you criticized, trashed, disrespected, even drove it drunk for God's sake! I tried to show you how to love your true self. Not the fake selfies with all of the filters, fake hair, angles to hide the flaws that only you could see. Instead, I cherished, loved, and adored, your real hair, every stretch mark, every wrinkle, every scar because those are the true beauty of a woman, not the sexy selfies to allow a bunch of perverted, horny men to get their jollies. That is not any kind of self actualization, it's simply lust after a superficial and not even real ideal. I was always a gentleman to you and treated you as a lady, with respect and deference. Attended counseling with you on my dime and my time, it was a completely pointless effort, I applaud you for going but I wish you would've listened. The counselor advised me when I went by myself for the last time "don't go back". I saw through it all and saw the actually beautiful person that you are deep inside but is hidden and subjugated by your own personal choices. If you truly and genuinely want to be a voice of and for women, STAND UP, set an actual example in real life vs social media life! I purchased you the equipment, a laptop, a printer, merchandise, showed you how to create an E-Bay business, what did you do with it Jessica? Where is that "call center" job you were going to get from your cousin, so you could be productive? Nothing. I was attempting to empower you to do something, anything on your own, so you could develop your self respect and self love. Instead you live in a fantasy world, thinking you are going to become queen of the world. I have honestly never seen such an ego as yours. I truly did support the movie thing, it was a kick, but it has not and most likely will never produce enough of an income to allow you to support yourself, support your family, not for you anyhow, because you aren't willing to work for it, not like the guy who has graciously given you the opportunity, not like the very small minority of our society, who have actually made it. It's not a full time commitment at this point anyhow. I still hope you get it and do it. I even tried to cover for you and calm you down, when you were ****ed drunk at the premier and yelling on Facebook live "THIS EFFIN MOVIE SUCKS" because you didn't think they showed your face, even though I assured you they did. Overall, I was simply an enabler, I allowed you to have the means to destroy yourself. You do in fact have a drinking and substance abuse problem, you need to get help! I am sure that the only reason you may not be doing it as much now is that I'm not there, feeding you the cash to purchase what you truly love. Yes, it is your life to destroy but you still have children and grandchildren who are depending on you to provide them with a place to live. You have utilities which you have no way of paying. A car in your garage you stopped paying for over a year ago. You are by no means any more "disabled" than thousands of women who bust their butts to earn an honest living. If you can dance on a pole you can darn sure get off your butt and do something other than use people, and then crap on them when they get a clue and move on. I'm so glad that your kids are pursuing gainful employment, I hope they stick with it, they need to learn responsibility and have a sense of accomplishment and certainly not follow the example mama is settin. Please remember, "a destroyer" would've exercised his right to take the vehicle after the payments weren't being made, insurance policy I purchased lapsed months ago, because it wasn't being paid, would've cut off the phones immediately, wouldn't have paid your bills. Continue to post your venom and hatred because you haven't gotten your own way, but remember I am the one who blocked you because I can't stand the drama that you constantly try to create out of little to nothing. Nevertheless, I will continue to pray for you as I have always, and truth be known, I hope that you someday prove that everything I have said here is absolutely wrong or off base, I truly do. I never asked for and never want a single penny of an amount you can't even comprehend much less come up with, it was given without obligation nor expectation, from the heart. Anyhow, this "beast" is out, I got 99 problems and you ain't one.